{SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW.}

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

title:{What happened to me?}

Haiz.. this few days really sad.. Dunno what happened to me....
Cant focus in anything i do.... Only in school then will i really forget all
the pain.. I cant stand to be alone, but i love the silence of it....

Still, i don't understand myself, when will i even start to? ....

Thinking of all the problems my friends are having now.Felt fortunate that i'm not trapped in the same situation, BUT, sad to say, i rather be in their shoe. At least there is something for me to be sad about. Me now, thinking of nothing, tears rolling down my cheek. Why? ....
I hope there is someone for me to talk to now. My sister?... No way man, she just sucks to core.I don't know why, but there is always a barrier between me and my friends, a barrier set up by me, not daring to ask for help. That is why i'm always stuck at the same point.

Is there really anyone out there that deserves all my waiting?
If one day, i never was the Francis Tan Kok Jun i used to be, then please come to me. Talk to me as if there is no tommorrow. Accompany me as if the time have stopped for us.Only then will i end everything with a goodbye.

Sometimes, i hope that my life would be like a movie in the theatres, where the couple always end up separated.Crazy i must be, but thats what true love really is(to me).

Sometimes i wonder, why does everyone get hurt so easily, i concluded that is cause everyone have a goal. A goal they must and wants to achieve, thats why you feel for it, you feel pain and happiness from it.
In my story, i have no goals, i take everything step by step, thats why i'm always happy go lucky. Thinking of what Yvonne said, she likes to help people so she decided to choose biomedical, and she also volunteered for that voluntary work some where oversea during the October Holiday.
See, she can be so strong in achieving her goal. Thats what makes her life full. Really admire her.

As for studies, i have no passion for it anymore, don't know why. Might be what happened at home, i might just quit and try to find a job to help support the family too.

I rather not waste time on something i have no passion on.
It would be just killing time and not using time.

This is a really long post from me. So i will stop here.
Peace out.

In need of someone....

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